2013年9月23日星期一

雨、生命裏的第二故鄉


雨就是大自然神奇的傑作,是人類生活中不可缺少的精靈,也只有雨,才配稱萬物生命裏的第二故鄉。

--題記文

淺秋、北方該有的梅雨季,炙熱的大地也該有場透雨了。

終於,這場透雨也終歸好似心想事成般的如期而至了。面對那執著的驕陽似火,這份秋雨,也終會用自己特有的脫毛價錢清涼柔順去澤被萬物。也就一場,就算那烈日鋪滿一夏、飛揚跋扈,也都會有清涼傾心潤肺,都會讓一切歸為平靜,讓浮躁的萬物歸於安寧。

清風拂面,細雨綿綿,置身與阡陌曠野,遊走在鄉間小徑,讓清風輕撫慰藉,任細雨捶打研磨,萬籟俱寂般的無一絲聲響,所有能表現的塵世喧嘩,好像忽然間都蟄伏在這一片清涼,一片安靜,一望無際的綿綿細雨之中,都是自然,而且也都會自然而然的回歸了本性。

能讓浮躁趨向安寧,這就是秋雨的使命。猶如近半月的伏火盛行,也猶如這場雨,只就一場,就會讓那伏火蟄伏,在那一片清爽沁心之中好似自然般的歸於了祥和與安靜。因為同為陰陽哲理,就有相生相克,那一方你都不能超越,都得平衡,就如這鋪滿半夏的驕陽,輝煌的頂點,也就意味著沒落的開始,道理都一樣的。

在我的世界,喜好中,大凡是雨我都愛,而且終將成為我的最愛。因為她留給我的形象和記憶,永遠都是美的。

就像那如油般的春雨,愛在它能使萬物蘇醒,能讓生命活靈活現。因為是它驅趕冬天回歸本位,也是它蘊育了夏的生機、蔭蔽著秋的希望。

大地的複蘇就是一個嶄新的開始,而春雨也終將會使整個大地都風光無限,美麗盡染。它會讓你聯想到豐收的喜悅,也能使整個世界改變姿容。它像薄霧般的輕紗輕撫著大地,不會落一絲聲響,也不留絲毫驕奢。只呈現一片清醒的靈動,徒留萬份少女般嫵媚的郵輪自由行情懷。

與春的柔情相比,夏的熱烈,粗礦,間帶下的夏雨也是那麼的豪情奔放,那陣勢如萬馬奔騰般的一瀉千裏,在你還來不及思考的瞬間就傾瀉而下了。使你毫無防備的周身的毛孔、全身的細小之處都瞬間清涼一片。如甘露,卻感覺不到細微綿柔。也就只是一哆嗦,那瞬間就已濕了的小草,飽了的花朵,浸染了的墨綠,都好似有了想成就出一片清爽的希望。也就一個眨眼,那灰茫茫般的雨帯,猶如那決堤了的天河壩口,傾泄而致。任張開雙臂的大地,用自己特有的媚惑滿滿的吸引,盡情的擁抱。填足了萬物的匱乏,消融了暑氣的狂妄,伴著蟬鳴,迎著蛙鼓,亮了彩虹的凱旋,暢想著那夏日特有的生命交響曲。

秋雨細膩,秋雨綿綿,秋雨的靜謐總讓人懷想,使人動情。秋雨以端莊奉送享受,以清涼浸潤燥熱,以幽靜傾訴情殤,以沉思回味收獲。秋雨的輕、靜與悠然。秋雨的高邈與深遠。單就那份潛藏中的安靜與沉思,就都會讓你的手機過資料靈魂得以淨化,浮躁得以安寧。平凡裏蟄伏了偉大,平淡中享受了幸福與歡樂。

愛雨總會盼雨,愛雨也終會讓我用一生一世去熱戀雨,眷顧雨。愛上雨就猶如熱愛了生命,若用我的字典去定義雨,那“雨”就是:萬物生命裏的“第二故鄉”.

2013年9月1日星期日

人最大的痛苦


人最大的痛苦,就是心靈沒有歸屬。親愛的!你的心靈現在有歸屬了麼?今天是你的生日,我清晨醒來,第一件事就是給你送去祝福短信:做你想做的事,去你想去的地方,愛你想愛的人,追求你想追求的夢想,許下美好的願望,擁抱美好的明天,享受美好的時光。願你生日快樂,快樂一生!

昨晚我們在幽靜的河堤邊上,找了一塊草坪席地而坐,我用手托著自己的腮幫沉思,你用煙掩飾著自己的煩燥心緒,我知道她突如其來的短信讓你心裏有幾分不安,我心裏也有一絲遺憾。月華如鏡,流淌在我們心中的到底是無奈和糾結?還是情思和愛意?夜色朦朧,遮掩了清晰的面目,我的心在這美好的月色中有種說不出的鬱悶,但又確實不想發作,不願意辜負這美好的月色。於是我起身散步以此來舒緩自己的心情,讓陰鬱的心在美好的月色中逐漸柔軟……

你認識她很偶然,是在我又一次漫不經心地對待你,口無遮攔地刺傷你之後,剛好別人給你介紹她,你便毫不猶豫地答應了去見見,結果便造就了你這段孽緣……,事後你也很後悔,也道過歉認過錯,但在我心裏就是拔不掉這顆刺,於是這段時間我們之間一直很糾結,分分合合多次最終沒有解決任何問題。

想到明天是你的生日,我還是選擇壓抑心中所有的不快,為了對得起你生日前夜的真誠,我輕握你的手,以朋友的心囑托著現實的無奈與情愁,你也算溫柔沉靜,默默地頷首允從。就這樣我們攜手享受了片刻柔風的撫摸,把所有的恩怨情愁暫時丟棄在這淒清的暮色之中。

沒有結果的感情,總要消逝;無法擁有的人,總會遺忘。人生沒有永遠的痛,沒有過不去的坎,沒有忘不掉的情殤。親愛的,不要急躁,不用傍偟,相信時間,相信你自己,相信上天總會善待每一段生命。只要我們真誠地對待自己的心,虔誠地對待感情,我堅信總有一天,會有一雙溫柔手地牽引著我們,帶我們走出回憶,走進我們未知的幸福。我總是這樣不斷地寬慰著自己,然而現實卻總在一點點地摧毀我的願望。

生活有時並非那麼複雜,只是因為我們想多了,想深了,人為地給自己編織了一道道網牛欄牌奶粉,然後在裏面奮力地掙紮;愛情可能有時並非想象中那麼完美,但如果我們有心,依然可以讓感情美好如初。可是我們總喜歡沉湎於它的浪漫,於是給它披上了絢麗的外衣,其實就算走到天荒地老,也離不開平淡稀松的日子。走過才知道,有些事簡單點,現實點,你才能輕松點,走遠點。

有些事,不說是個結,說了是個疤。這段時間,我們喜怒無常,我們猶豫傍偟,幸福對我們來說似乎轉瞬即逝,感情對我們也是呼之即來。人生最大的幸運,就是經曆了感情毒蘑菇的侵蝕之後,我們還能保持信任和愛的能力。目前我們似乎依然擁有愛的能力,但卻無法再彼此信任。是感情的毒蘑菇魅力太大?還是我們的感情基礎太差?我看都不是,其實說來說去就是你被那點傳統的私念蒙蔽了心眼。本想以最善良的心來陪你共同面對未來可能遭遇的煩擾與變故,然而你卻不能懂得我的心。你的淺薄和頑固讓我瞬間心灰意冷,這段時間積壓在心裏的所有隱憂和憤懣一齊湧上心頭,讓我突然覺得跟你真是無話可說。實然驚覺,你這樣的一個男人,到底值得我為你做點什麼?

天氣,依舊很悶熱,我的心也如同這天氣一般煩燥鬱悶,沒有一絲的清爽殘存。就像茶葉在沸水中一樣,浮浮沉沉,最後還是不得不沉入杯底,萬劫不複。

“飄逸的庸俗,敏感的麻木,洞察一切的愚昧,一往無前的退縮。”不記得是在哪本書裏看到過的,突然覺得用這個描述來形容你真的是最合適不過,你就是這樣的一種人。那我到底該拿你這種人怎麼辦呢?人最遺憾的不是把理想丟在路上,而是理想從未上路。你就是我那個從未上路的理想,你離理想的確有太遠的距離。

今天是你的生日,真不知該如何形容你今天留給我的心情,感覺你現在於我,就如同被癌細胞侵入的手足,舍去難,不舍也難,要想清除癌細胞更是難上加難。

因為在乎,所以痛苦。因為懷疑,所以傷害。“心”字三個點,沒有一個點不在往外蹦。我們越想抓牢的,往往是離開我們最快的。有時候心真的很累,不想說話也不想動,不需要安慰和陪伴,只想要一個人呆著。

在這個浮躁的社會,今天再精彩,也只是在拼湊明天的曆史,我們再執著,也拒絕不了歲月賦予的牛欄牌傷痕。期待,是所有心痛的根源。心不動,則不痛。過去已經定格,那就讓它塵封吧,努力書寫今天,讓明天的懷念多一些亮色。

Walters a good fit for NQ: Scott


The looming departure of Neil Henry still stings Matt Scott but it has not stopped the North Queensland co-captain giving Kevin Walters the thumbs up as his replacement Shopping in Hong Kong.

Canberra assistant and ex-Cowboy Andrew Dunemann is reportedly the dark horse for the North Queensland vacancy with Paul Green and Trent Barrett also believed to be in the mix.

But Scott said Walters would be a good fit at the Cowboys after being reminded that Melbourne and Test captain Cameron Smith had endorsed the former Storm assistant as the man to replace Henry this week.

"No doubt he would be good for the place," Scott said.

"I haven't had much to do with Kevvy.

"But he's a great bloke, a pretty funny guy.

"I am sure anyone who has been coached by him would endorse him as well.

"There has been a few candidates tossed around.

"I put my faith in the board to make a good decision."

Not that Scott did not feel for Henry who was told after North Queensland's last round loss to Brisbane that he would not be required in 2014 children’s bedroom furniture.

"It's disappointing it had to end this way," he said.

"He's been around this club for a long time and I have had him as an assistant in the Origin arena as well - he's a good mate of mine.

"But it comes with the territory when you are not winning, you come to expect it."

Asked if the players were feeling guilty about Henry's dumping, Scott said: "I don't think so.

"It is one of those things. It works both ways. If a player is not playing well they get dropped or their contract doesn't get extended."

Scott was also dealing with the sad news of former Cowboys coach Graham Murray's passing on Sunday after recently suffering a second heart attack.

"It's devastating. It's a tragedy. He gave me my debut jersey back in 2004 and played a lot of years under him," he said.

However, Scott said the Cowboys still had the desire to make an unlikely finals tilt despite being six points out of the eight with six games left following last round's 18-16 loss to Brisbane.

But North Queensland (13th; 6-12) must start by downing ladder leaders South Sydney in Townsville on Saturday night.

"They (Rabbitohs) have really been a standout this year in the NRL Canadian Chartered Institute of Business Administration," Scott said.

"They're probably the benchmark at the moment, up there with the Roosters and the Storm.

"It's a big challenge for us and obviously we need to play better than we did on Friday night (against Brisbane).

"I think there was enough to take out of that game that if we can improve on that, and keep moving forward, we can give it a shake."